Human Paradoxes Joao Motta
1. People ask me why I don’t sign my works of art or my writings.
An obvious and true answer would be because I forget or I don’t think of it.
Yet others remember that when I published my book, The Territory and the Map , the last page mentioned that the book did not have any copyright and that anybody could make copies of it, making mention or not of the name of the author.
Did I invent the words or the colors?
Or…(here begins the paradox)…did I write all the books on this planet?
Can I dare say that I am channeling this so-called planet?
I see myself and any other human as a paradox.
On one hand, after due research (which has to give credit to humility and intelligence), I came to the conclusions that the human is a program (in fact a rather binary one) and that the so much admired personality is but a sub-program of the physical body.
Once one accepts that one is a program, life starts to simplify and you start observing that the other humans are also their own program with many features in common with yours and you start to appreciate diversity from a new angle.
On the other hand, after a few experiences in your life you start realizing that you are more than the sum of your body , your emotions and your thinkings. You start positing the hypothesis that you might be a spirit incarnated, using the physical , emotional and mental bodies as a vehicle to experience. Once you open to that possible larger identity, you start having experiences that prove to you the truth that you are more than what you think. Might you be a god that has forgotten its true nature in its journey to and through this Earth? a forgotten god, a fallen god?
Then you see that we are not a human paradox, that we are of a (at least ) dual nature.
You start seeing, if you exert due diligence in your observation, that your experience is you, that whatever you see is a part of you, both the people you admire, like the Hollywood actors, the politicians, the religious ministers and the scientists ( all with all their galaxies of problems) and those people you despise, reject and not want to face.
It is true, you need both intelligence and humility to accept this path of scientific investigation about the nature of reality. That combination may sound like another paradox but it is not. To be truly intelligent you have to be humble, otherwise you will not be open to new knowledge and to unexpected wisdom.
2. Once a spiritual teacher asked me “ wouldn’t you just be a nameless particle in the void rather than a charicature of a biography?”.
That stroke a chord within me. Indeed it is ridiculous the way we get identity through our past achievements rather than being open to a new personality. Which shows the lack of trust in the unknown that characterizes us.
So, to clarify this question, I would say that as we are all one and as ideas are in the air and do not belong to anyone, I am not very concerned -at least at this stage of my being an unknown person-with particular issues of authorship. In my Magical Gardens I use all types of objects that were made by others. We just add our little bit of effort and genius to the long chain of creativity. It could even be said that it is the divine working through us that facilitates all our productions.
3. Besides, having been in different spiritual groups who give names to their adherents, I have different names to which I relate. With which one would I sign?
I tried ( and still use) different names for the writer, the artist of the Magical Gardens and for the actor/dancer.
But in the end I do not feel that any known name encompasses all the energies who I am, I did not yet feel any name that would resonate within my heart, any name that would draw the best out of me.
Having in mind that in order to achieve a coherent personality to interact within society, a personal name is the hallmark ,is its synthesis, I would then say that ,as a human paradox , I am neither a coherent, finished personality, nor I am yet beyond a certain identification with my vehicles. So, until that moment of truth comes I will keep signing my life with different names or not signing at all. The One has many faces, ours is just the button we press.